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Acrylic on canvas painted and featured by CC Shong in their book “daybreak” accompanied by this poem:
Contemplating suicide
on the floor of your shower was a particular low for me
I was hoping
this feeling would dissipate
and circle the drain
instead it surrounds me
like standing water
the fact that
a major hurdle in this act
is not that I would not do it
but that I could not
break open one of your razors the the notion that
if I did not do it correctly
it would be a scar on my arm but not in your life
perspective is funny perspective is fuzzy now
the heat of the water burning my back
I welcome that
it grounds me
it places me back into this reality
a pain release
a brain release
I feel water draining around me I feel relief
not disappointment recognition
a change in my disposition I save myself
I choose life
I choose sleep
Acrylic on canvas painted and featured by CC Shong in their book “daybreak” accompanied by this poem:
Contemplating suicide
on the floor of your shower was a particular low for me
I was hoping
this feeling would dissipate
and circle the drain
instead it surrounds me
like standing water
the fact that
a major hurdle in this act
is not that I would not do it
but that I could not
break open one of your razors the the notion that
if I did not do it correctly
it would be a scar on my arm but not in your life
perspective is funny perspective is fuzzy now
the heat of the water burning my back
I welcome that
it grounds me
it places me back into this reality
a pain release
a brain release
I feel water draining around me I feel relief
not disappointment recognition
a change in my disposition I save myself
I choose life
I choose sleep